Tears are words the heart can't express

"Oh, look what you've done. You've made a fool of everyone. Oh well, it seems like such fun until you lose what you had won". Those are the lyrics I currently hear. Life's been so complicated lately. It seems like I've been pushing myself away from everyone. I no longer want to socialize with my friends and I'm disconnecting myself from the outside world completely. I go to school, come home and go to sleep. I think I'm doing this because of you. Just look what we've become. Two completely lost strangers yearning for help. I try; you give up. You try; I give up. Over and over in an endless cycle. The problem is that I don't know how much longer I can hang on. This isn't suppose to be easy but you've given up way too early and even admitted it yourself. So we give it another shot but here I am again alone, lost, and confused. I have a hard time letting go of this unfinished business but I can no longer bear sitting here alone in the dark watching what we once had fade. One day I try to figure out a way to fix this but then another I completely give up and tell myself I'm better off without you. I'm scared because lately I've been thinking it's better to let go. It seems like I want to take the easy way out and just cowardly leave everything and everyone behind. Sometimes I think that I need a fresh start. Somewhere I can runaway from all my problems and have a fresh start. Maybe I just need a vacation from this place...I miss the way things used to be. The way you made me feel; like I'm complete for the first time in my life. I wonder if I'll ever feel that way again. I guess only time will tell...For now I'm just gonna sit here on this rollercoaster of emotions trying to hang on with a broken arm in throbbing pain.